Another Test Of Life

It seems like just yesterday I entered this hostel. But reality proves me wrong. The year that commenced is now about to end.Once I was a new student to these classrooms, these corridors, these stairs, the eating halls and the most of all, our dorms. The day of my admission till today has been a long, but fast journey. Time ticked away and I didn't even realize. The thoughts that came to me on the first day, make me wonder how I managed to survive till date. Leaving my parents for the first time in my life, staying in a building with people of only the feminine gender, with the food of a weekly tasteless boring routine and devoid of electrical gadgets. I laugh about all these thoughts, but maybe I am actually proud I made it through. I have no regrets and no complaints excepting the people. 

They say when you enter the real world, you'll understand why your sweet home is actually so sweet. The people here have been a tiny trailer of hell. From the teachers to the wardens to the staff and to the friends. So difficult to understand but so easy to pretend.
The number of my friends here have failed to elevate my number of fights. I've been hurt, I've been insulted, I've been mistaken and I've made mistakes, I've been misunderstood and I've even been cruelly criticized. I cried and sometimes gave up and other times I gave in. But I learned to move on in life.
No matter how bad life has been with me out here, the little percent of my good luck overpowered my sadness. This year was a memorable one for me even with its flaws. For teaching me how to be independent in life. For making me a stronger person. For making me meet such varied personalities. For giving me my best buddy back. For letting me pass in my test of patience with flying colors. Studies will always be studies.That will always be in the syllabus of all my tests of life. But the feelings, the experiences, the moments and the memories, the people and the environment from my new syllabus as they are ever-so-changing. A new test every day.

Days kept on passing, the pages in the calendar kept on reducing, the year is becoming old and my 15^th year on Earth is nearing to an end. One college year is near to over, but another is yet to commence.

Slowly, my wings of independence and freedom are spreading. I’m becoming a big girl, emerging from experiences and incidents.

Life’s not easy, nor is it too difficult. But, I have learnt one thing in my life. People come and go, no matter how tight you hold on to them. Only a few stay with you forever. And only their words spoken and the memories shared are left with you. It hurts to leave something, especially when you know it’s the only thing you love. But the truth always hurts. Moving on is the only solution… 

My Soul Sister

She's the angel of my life
Sometimes gives the pain of a knife
And makes me laugh the most
We're perfect like butter and toast.

We pull each other's hair
For each other, the most we care
Her mistakes, I take up
For lying or breaking a cup.

She's growing up real fast
But her childishness will last
For me, she's my little princess
Even though she's a mess.

I am nothing without her
I love being her big sister
She's my cutie cute pie
And I swear that's not a lie..

The Reason is You....

Your voice makes me smile
Thinking 'bout you all the while
I don't know what to feel
But, I do know this love is real.

Everyday without you
I just don't know what to do
Always lost in your thought
About all the memories we shot

I need no one else for me
Except you, we were meant to be
You fill the emptiness in my heart
With you, I will never part.

The lines we said to each other
Made us spend more time together
You make me fall in love everyday
You are in my life, forever to stay...

Love.. To me!!

Maybe i was wrong...

But, i totally wasn't rite..

Thinking bout how long

You wud remain in my sight

But, baby it was my mistake

Cuz i was d one dreaming..

I thought it was a piece of cake..

And i never thot of u leaving..

I wanted u a step closer..

And we would love each other forever..

With a cute soft whisper

And a little bit of laughter..

I miss those days..

When we met near the stair case

And u wud try to kiss me in ur ways

But i cudnt get with the pace..

Now, i look back at those tyms

And possibly shed a tear or two..

Never wanting to say so many.. BYES

Just all this.. cuz of YOU

I hav laufed and i hav cried..

But it's no use.. We noe it is over..

Maybe u have lied..

But the pain i try to cover!!

We both go in opposite ways..

like we were alwayz strangers.. 

Things are finished- our days

Now, i have becum a depresed creature...

Always listen to your heart...

It's so hard to wait for someone when your mind says he won't come back.. but there is always a small spark in you heart providing you some assurance...

My life was like that some months ago.. I lost my best buddy and I thought I wouldn't be getting him back ever.. but my heart never agreed with that. And today my heart has been proved right. Life is so much better these days..

My best bud is with me again and I am so busy with him day and night.. talking and talking about endless things.

So I thought it would be good advice.. Always listen to your heart because it will never be wrong and your heart will never lie to you. It never cheats you. 

God always gives us the first chance and sometimes gives the lucky a second chance.. I consider myself lucky (touch-wood) .. because I was given another chance and this time I am not going to lose it. 

I thank god for his mercy and his help.. I am happy for his blessings

And I am happy that my best buddy still stands by my side today <3

The Eternal Ring

Everyone has someone. Someone to tell something. Something needed to tell. Tell their secrets. Secrets which are never kept. Kept only for the while. While we think everything's fine. Fine?, nothing's fucking fine, secrets are spread. Spread like wild fire. Fire catches on very quickly. Quickly, you runaway from the world. World just likes gossip. Gossip ruins everything. Everything is perfectly ruined. Ruined is our life. Life is just laughing at you. You can't believe your friends. Friends were the betrayers. Betrayers are bitches. Bitches can't keep shut. Shut up, tell everyone to go. Go, get lost somewhere. Somewhere, anywhere, but not here. Here, i want to be left alone. Alone, that suits me very well. Well, I may need someone, but not now. Now, I need to get back to senses. Senses are something I've lost. Lost all my happiness and my memories. Memories which need to be collected. Collected and kept away. Away deep inside the heart. Heart is where all is kept. Kept safely in the deep core. Core is the center. Center is where the heart is. Is the soul a part of it? it is a part. Part and whole of our body. Body goes, soul remains. Remains, but the bodies change. Change is the only thing constant. Constant as the time moves on. On and on we go. Go to our destiny. Destiny is our last stop. Stop, after that we see death. Death is faced with fear. Fear should be gone, pride should come. Come with a smile on the face. Face it with all your might. Might then, you may survive again. Again,repeats the cycle. Cycle that never wants to end. End only when you think different. Different and out of the crowd. Crowd only pushes and pulls. Pulls for their own selfishness. Selfishness, everyone possesses. Possesses it to survive. Survive in a bloody world. World full of traitors and bastards. Bastards who think less and do more. More than required. Required is some law. Law that is not corrupt. Corrupt is the word my fella'. Fella' you mind it. It will get to you one day. Day that you'll have to run. Run far far away. Away where you can sleep. Sleep like a sleeping beauty. Beauty will call the prince. Prince kisses  upon the cheek. Cheek so soft and a smile so sweet. Sweet and normal again....

THE END!!

Just a Thought

As we move on our road to destiny, we pick up some remarkable and some dull stones and keep them with ourselves. We gather so many stones, we don't realize some may be missing or forgotten. Some are left behind, which will remain there for you to come back and pick them up. These stones trace our footsteps on the path of life. They will be there with us, be it far or near... These stones are our experiences and our cherished memories. Through time, they become distant and weathered, but they're still there.

Some may be broken, some sparkly, some dull and some dusty, but each and every one is unique in it's own way....